First Blog..so much to say!

I've decided it was time for me to start blogging. It's been a long time coming. It seems I have to much to say, so much to SHARE! My children do some of the neatest and most precious things, and I thought it was time I started jotting them down.
I also wanted to share my walk with the Lord. His Grace and Mercy never cease to amaze me. I must say, it's not always an easy walk. There are times when I walk on the rocky roads, climb the biggest mountains and face deep valleys, but my Lord is always there with me. He never leaves my side and is always telling me to press on, have faith, victory will come.

So I suppose I should start out with my day..=)

Bentley had his first shots today, and his 2 month check up. It's hard to believe my sweet little boo bear is already 2 months old. I waited a long, hard 9 months only to have him grow so quickly!! I wish I could just freeze time and keep him like he is now. (Okay..maybe fast forward to where he is able to hold his own bottle..=) He did pretty well, and like most Mommies, it hurt me more then it hurt him. He's sleeping now =)

My sweet Brevin will be graduating from KINDERGARTEN in a very short 3 weeks. It's bittersweet. That kid is my rock. I love all my children, but Brevin is really..really special to me. He has been there with me at my highest of highs and lowest of lows. He's been through a lot..party because of me making crappy decisions, but he's a strong baby. He's my heart, and he's so GROWN. Brevin is going to be my man of God, I firmly believe it. Brevin has a calling. I really have faith he is going to come home one day and tell me the Lord has laid it upon his heart to be a minister. I'm so excited about that, and can not wait for that day!! He is so strong in his faith. If you're ever around him, you can just feel God all over him. He has such a sweet personality (although at times he hides it for a little while). I'm looking forward to watching him grow, both in faith and as a child. It really make my heart ache a little because very soon he won't need me like he does now. I see every day he become a little more independent.

The Lord has really been blessing my family. I could not ask for more, I am so not deserving of what I have now. I really just pray for prayers of protection on the blessings that He is giving us.

God is so GOOD!

I've been in prayer about a lot of things here lately. Mostly about what the Lord asks of me, what He wants me to do. He has really been laying it on my heart lately to work with the youth. I really feel like this is my testimony. I was so weak when I was younger. I wasn't strong in faith and was basically running every which way I could to get away from the Lord.

But He never turned His back to me.

He knew eventually that I would come to Him. I am so thankful I did. He picked me up, dusted me off, forgave me and made me His. He loves me just as I am..and has never forsaken me.

His Grace is BEYOND sufficient.

I've been in prayer for about a year now, asking my Lord to give me a gift. A gift I KNEW He wanted me to have. I wanted so badly to be filled with the Holy Spirit with evidence of speaking in tongues. I had prayed so hard about it, asking the Lord to touch me, give it to me. I waited and prayed patiently =) Last Sunday morning (April 25, 2010), my prayers were finally answered.

Praise the Lord!!

It's strange, in a way how it happens. I've had a lot of burdens on me here lately. I've honestly been laying then at His feet. I know He will carry my burdens for me. I've talked with my Pastor about them and really sought in the Lord the last couple of months. One of them have been about my headaches. I was so deep in prayer, and when the Pastor touched my head, I swear it felt like a rush of heat, shot from the crown of my head to the tips of my toes. I lost all control. I had no control over myself..He had taken my body and filled it with the Holy Spirit. I prayed..I'm sure most could hear me crying. It was such a comfort to feel him wrapping His presence around me. I prayed for my Lord to sanctify me. I prayed for Him to sanctify my mouth, my mind, my body, my soul. I prayed for Him to cleanse me from the crown of my head to the tips of my toes. To use me..

And then it came..it flowed out of my mouth like water from a pitcher =)

From that point, I couldn't tell you what happened. It was all I blur. I just remember my body being on fire and I felt Him all around me. What a joyful day!!

I'm sure some have lost interest by now. But I have to go ahead and tell my readers:

I love my Lord!!

If you've come here expecting blogs about how I stayed out all night, partying, drinking..etc. You won't find that here. God has been good to me. I've never done anything to deserve all He has blessed me with and yet, He still continues to bless me. By the second!! I've never been high enough, drunk enough, nor has any man I have dated made me feel the way my Savior does.

My posts won't always be so detailed about my relationship with God, but He is first in my life and I am NOT ashamed of the Gospel!! =)

I WILL PRAISE HIM!

My life is what it is because of who HE is and what HE blesses me with.

Anywho, I think this post is long enough for my first one. It won't always be like this I'm sure, but I have a lot to say =)

I hope whoever reads this will enjoy reading about my family, my babies, and my ever growing relationship with God.

My life isn't always glamorous, but it keeps me on my toes!



"Drop down, ye heavens, from above, and let the skies pour down righteousness: let the Earth open, and let them bring forth salvation, and let righteousness spring up together; I the LORD have created it." ~Isaiah 45:8

P.S.- Kylie..if you're reading this..please take a breather. I know after reading all of my grammatical errors you are pulling your hair out!!! =)=)=)